This morning was HCM final Sunday. Father gave him a “deployment” blessing for Soldiers. I cried.
Today was also SCM’s official “going away we all love you celebration” at the house. It was wonderful to see family, extended family, and friends but at the same time it made everything hit home for me. With his days at home coming into the single digits – and knowing it won’t be until summer time next year that I see him again I am feeling a little down. Fighting back tears all day has been hard and on my alone points I have has my moments of failure. I am trying to be strong for HCM and LM but I hurt.
I worry about what it’s going to be like -how much we will miss daddy. I worry how LM is going to do. I worry about HCM and pray that he comes home safe. Currently I am on a mad hunt to squeeze two ipads out of our limited budget so that we can facetime and skype with Daddy while he is gone. This is causing me even more stress.
One year. One year without daddy. I hate saying it. Though I know we will be okay it’s still hard.
I am sad for things he will miss in our lives. I am sad for the time apart. I am proud of what he is doing. I am proud that he is an amazing man and medic. I am worried to see my best friend so far away. I am sad to not have him by my side. I am hopeful he will return safely. More than anything I am blessed to call him my husband.
Every month I plan to send a care package full of fun surprises and needed items along with mounds of handwritten letters – a home touch I find so beautiful. I plan to workout every day so HCM can come home to a wifey that has lost all her baby flub. We will see how well that goal plays out. Be more centered and prayerful as well as get out of the house to my mommy groups so I do not sit and wallow.
Do you have a friend or family member that has deployed? What kind of memory things did you do for them while they were gone? What was/is your favorite thing to send in a care package? When are you apart from your SO for long periods of time what are good ways your keep yourself centered in life?